The Daydream

What if suddenly, in this current time, you’ve been given a chance to be with a 10 year old you, what will you do?

This is a question that comes to my mind one Wednesday afternoon during a class in Meteorology. What if such thing happens, what if...?

           My mind started float in the air imagining the situation, the first thing that I thought about is asking him questions. Why are you here? How did you come here? Are you with someone? Then, I will ask him what can he remember within the past few days and try to remember them myself if I still can. After that, I will call my mother (or maybe not) and tell her that a ten year old me is with me. XD

I made a list of things that I want to do with a young me and here’s the following,

•  Invite him in a race in the swimming pool
• Beat him a thousand times in arm wrestling
• Show him my previous hair styles
• Measure my height with his
• Teach him how to play guitar
•  I will tell him my experiences
•  I will tell him that our parents are the best in the world
•  I will advise him not to hate singing
•  I will tell him that time will come that he’ll be rebellious, and that he should fight against it because being one is totally uncool.
•  I will advise him what course to take in college so that he’ll not waste his 4 years on it :p
• Take a picture together and make it a profile picture on Facebook
•  I will tell him that time will come that a lot of girls will have a crush on him and fall in love with him.

I will tell him that she can have girlfriends one at a time, but by the age of 21, I will tell him to find one specific person, I will tell him her name and where she is studying, I will tell him that she's..

The person who will love you the most,

The person who will wait for you in times when you're not together

The girl who will accept you even with your imperfections,

The girl that you will love

I will tell him that she’s the girl that I’m looking forward to be together with for the rest of my life.

After that, I will ask him if he have any questions to me that he wants to know, and I will answer them as best as I can.

While thinking about all of these, my mind come to rest upon satisfaction, ready to say goodbye to the young me.

The meteorology class has ended, Oh no! I forgot to tell him to avoid too much day dreaming and to listen and stay focus while having his classes! ;D

Chance

Sometimes in life, you will meet someone that in an instant, you can be yourself in front of that person in all ways that you want and in all ways that you can without thinking that you'll be rejected.  You both will laugh together and talk about a lot of things while not realizing the time as it passes.

Who knew that after 10 years, you will meet again in a place that you both didn't expect and knowing that before then, you didn't even knew each other that well.

Every moment is like a journey that you wouldn't want to end. This is one of the happiest moments of my life, and also one that pierce my heart as you leave. For now, there is nothing more I can say but... Thank You ^^

“I know what to do and I know what I have to do, but the problem is that I don’t have the will to do what I suppose to do”

           Focus is my strength, when I put my focus on something I perform better than the most, I can finish the things that I have to do in one shot, and I can push myself to the limit and be the best on it in a short period of time, that is why people usually get stunned when they see me in action, well, this is based all on my hobbies, swimming, and my avatar on galaxy, and some other things like table tennis when I was on my college days and a lot more.

            Focus is my weakness, when I put my focus on something it never last. I can only focus on a short period of time. Most of the time, I cannot finish the things that I’m doing because every time I lost my focus, I totally lost it, which means, that’s it, done. This is based on how I do on my studies. I cannot finish all my assignments, every time I set my goals on what to study for the day, I even couldn’t make halfway through it.

“I know what to do and I know what I have to do, but the problem is that I don’t have the will to do what I suppose to do”

            I am the type of person who can relax when problem arise. No, I am the type of person who look relax when problem arise. I always act like everything will be just fine. Whenever I read something like this is how a good leader is, or this how successful people are, I always find myself opposite on how they behave but really, those are good points, and I want to be like them, I always dream to be on top, to be known, to influence others, I even want to become a motivational speaker, I want to become an adviser, I am looking forward to become a man who love to help people to be on their best and to reach their full potential to succeed in life.

   

            Everyone who writes have their own reasons for writing. I made this specific article just because I have a lot of things to do, reports, presentations, reviews for my exams which happens to be tomorrow and a lot more. I write to motivate myself, warming up before starting the engine. I hope this works ^^.

19^Th April 2013

Akademi Laut Malaysia

One for all, All for one

And yes, we got pushups, star jumps, and PT10. 75% of the class was dismissed from the punishments but still 25% are on their heat. It’s raining but we decided to stay because some of our group mates are still there. We didn’t mind the rain; we cannot let anyone left behind. At that very moment, I can feel the spirit of everyone on every raindrop that pierce. This is one of our strength, the Dns013 Alpha class. Then I remember One Piece, a story of pirates who took life as an adventure. In times of troubles, Monkey d’ Luffy, the captain shows a great attitude that makes him to be one of the bests. He fights till his death for his nakama.

It is interesting to look at people who shows heroism, they inspires us to be on our best, and somehow to be like them. But today, based on my observations, people are more in to things that will give them personal ease or up thrust. We forgot how to think wise, we forgot the value of life and on some parts we miss the fun.

Life is challenging. One of the goals in this world is not just surviving but winning with pride. On that very moment, we can just leave; no one will condemn us for leaving because we’re already dismissed. But leaving is not just right when you know that someone will be left behind, if we leave that time, yes we survived but we didn’t win, then no one among us can carry the pride of winning.

I think this is one of the reasons why we get caught up in life that we started to feel that life becomes boring, the reason is that we don’t realize that what we are doing is just surviving. Don’t we want to have the pride of winning? It bears sacrifices but the result is definitely priceless. Maybe a lot of us specially those who are mostly concerned with the matter of consequences will say that such things depends on the situation, yes it is true, but for me, the only situation that can be is whether your heart is ready to gain the pride of winning or not.

Bring It On

In our walk, there will come a time that we will realize that we are in one of the most critical situation of our life and we get concerned with matter of consequences especially when it involves physical and mental fatigue. Then we will realize that we need to be stronger because there are still more to come.

As time goes by, if we’ll just look closely, we will realize the real battle in life. For me, all falls to the battle of the heart. It’s about how you will let your heart let your mind and body works in times of fatigue. If we fail to put our heart on what we do, we’ll definitely fail by time.

For me, being on a critical situation is a “one stone hit two birds” thing. If we conquered them today, we conquered them in the future. If we fail not to train ourselves to the limit, life would be more difficult than difficult. For an officer, this is his pride.

When we were a child, its was very fulfilling for our parents to see us standing for the first time, and much more when we began to stand alone. Before, this is what I want to happen in my life, to be able to stand alone. But I was wrong. I haven’t realized that we will be able to stand alone naturally as time goes by because that is nature, the thing which differs is if we could learn how to stand firm.

I, the Tigress, and the Prince Boy

This post is not like the story of the princess and the frog or something; I just found it to be interesting if I’ll use this as my title,  and one more thing, there is no specific idea on this post, so forgive me if things just shoot everywhere ^^ .

                Once upon a time, in a place where people are casts with so much beauty, there was a very handsome guy named Ralp, lol. Just kidding…

Last Friday, 17^th of June, we were scheduled for shore cleaning. We picked up plastics and twigs shoved on the shore. We went to this hill like piles of big rocks were the top were covered by a blanket of thick grass. The view was just normal, nothing interesting, it’s like a particular view of seaside were you can see ships, some anchored and some passing by. For me, the setting of the place is just so peaceful. I really enjoyed that moment.

By that time, I realized that the beauty of the place lies on the people you are with. It was fun especially when my rubber shoes get dipped on the water, thanks to her.

I imagined myself being on that place alone, and I realized that it won’t be that special as it is. I realized that simple places or moments in life would bare marks because of the people you are with, by your family, by your friends.

While enjoying the view, I was talking to the tigress and to the prince boy; they were my classmates actually, Ann and Syazwan. Ann is my seatmate, I called her “tigress” because she’s so wild; she always hit and pinch me every time, she’s sweet in her own way and I like her… sometimes. Syazwan, the “rich boy” called me “flower boy”, well maybe because I’m so cute like a flower lol. I called him rich boy until yesterday when I realized that calling him “prince boy” would be better for he portrays the characteristics of a prince on the story books, based on his view of things in life and how I saw his gentlemanliness when we’re with the ladies. I don’t usually talk a lot to the tigress because I’m afraid that she would bite me ^^, just kidding. She’s really fun to talk to because she don’t took things easily, you’ll just talk and talk and talk and talk and talk until she gave you a roar! then you’ll stop lol. hoyeah! Well that was based on my experience with her. I talked a lot to Syazwan because he appreciates all the bullshits that I’m throwing, he’s a good friend as well, and they were good source of answers during exams too ^^. Then I asked them a question,

What is the role of a guy/girl in a boyfriend/girlfriend relationship?

I still haven’t get the specific, real, and true answer because they differ on different people, and some haven’t got any, maybe if you got it, you could help me, just post it here, on the comments. ^^

I asked that question to myself a long time ago, to my friends, and to people who I think are needed to be asked. If we were in a relationship, and things are not going well, I think it wise for us to ask this question to ourselves or to our partner. Well of course it depends on the situation or if the conflict lies on personal capability of understanding things.

We talked a lot that time, no, well actually, I talked a lot ^^. I’m a quiet type of guy, especially when things are new to me, I only talked a lot to people that I’m comfortable with.

I will surely miss them and everything about them especially now that we’ll not be seeing each other for a year. Things could be nothing for them, cause I’m not that special to be missed ^^ but for me, it’s really fun being with them even though we really don’t’ know a lot about each other.

Something in Nothing

My body is so weak

And my mind is giving up

I can feel every bit

Of things that is lack

I’m alone but crowded

A stampede inside

They’re coming from everywhere

No where I can’t hide

I got very sensitive

To the noise of the world

Anything that gives sound

Make my head explodes

All I can do is

The description of “nothing”

That is how I

Become an empty being

But still I believe

That there’s something in there

That I’m trying to pull

As I write myself

Somehow in this moment

I can feel the relief

Maybe because this poem

Bear out some of my grief

And I will continue

Healing to be well

Cause I won’t let myself

To be trapped in this hell

I know these things will past

And I’ll regain my strength

Because I have a God

Who’s always there to help