One for all, All for one

And yes, we got pushups, star jumps, and PT10. 75% of the class was dismissed from the punishments but still 25% are on their heat. It’s raining but we decided to stay because some of our group mates are still there. We didn’t mind the rain; we cannot let anyone left behind. At that very moment, I can feel the spirit of everyone on every raindrop that pierce. This is one of our strength, the Dns013 Alpha class. Then I remember One Piece, a story of pirates who took life as an adventure. In times of troubles, Monkey d’ Luffy, the captain shows a great attitude that makes him to be one of the bests. He fights till his death for his nakama.

It is interesting to look at people who shows heroism, they inspires us to be on our best, and somehow to be like them. But today, based on my observations, people are more in to things that will give them personal ease or up thrust. We forgot how to think wise, we forgot the value of life and on some parts we miss the fun.

Life is challenging. One of the goals in this world is not just surviving but winning with pride. On that very moment, we can just leave; no one will condemn us for leaving because we’re already dismissed. But leaving is not just right when you know that someone will be left behind, if we leave that time, yes we survived but we didn’t win, then no one among us can carry the pride of winning.

I think this is one of the reasons why we get caught up in life that we started to feel that life becomes boring, the reason is that we don’t realize that what we are doing is just surviving. Don’t we want to have the pride of winning? It bears sacrifices but the result is definitely priceless. Maybe a lot of us specially those who are mostly concerned with the matter of consequences will say that such things depends on the situation, yes it is true, but for me, the only situation that can be is whether your heart is ready to gain the pride of winning or not.

Bring It On

In our walk, there will come a time that we will realize that we are in one of the most critical situation of our life and we get concerned with matter of consequences especially when it involves physical and mental fatigue. Then we will realize that we need to be stronger because there are still more to come.

As time goes by, if we’ll just look closely, we will realize the real battle in life. For me, all falls to the battle of the heart. It’s about how you will let your heart let your mind and body works in times of fatigue. If we fail to put our heart on what we do, we’ll definitely fail by time.

For me, being on a critical situation is a “one stone hit two birds” thing. If we conquered them today, we conquered them in the future. If we fail not to train ourselves to the limit, life would be more difficult than difficult. For an officer, this is his pride.

When we were a child, its was very fulfilling for our parents to see us standing for the first time, and much more when we began to stand alone. Before, this is what I want to happen in my life, to be able to stand alone. But I was wrong. I haven’t realized that we will be able to stand alone naturally as time goes by because that is nature, the thing which differs is if we could learn how to stand firm.

I, the Tigress, and the Prince Boy

This post is not like the story of the princess and the frog or something; I just found it to be interesting if I’ll use this as my title,  and one more thing, there is no specific idea on this post, so forgive me if things just shoot everywhere ^^ .

                Once upon a time, in a place where people are casts with so much beauty, there was a very handsome guy named Ralp, lol. Just kidding…

Last Friday, 17^th of June, we were scheduled for shore cleaning. We picked up plastics and twigs shoved on the shore. We went to this hill like piles of big rocks were the top were covered by a blanket of thick grass. The view was just normal, nothing interesting, it’s like a particular view of seaside were you can see ships, some anchored and some passing by. For me, the setting of the place is just so peaceful. I really enjoyed that moment.

By that time, I realized that the beauty of the place lies on the people you are with. It was fun especially when my rubber shoes get dipped on the water, thanks to her.

I imagined myself being on that place alone, and I realized that it won’t be that special as it is. I realized that simple places or moments in life would bare marks because of the people you are with, by your family, by your friends.

While enjoying the view, I was talking to the tigress and to the prince boy; they were my classmates actually, Ann and Syazwan. Ann is my seatmate, I called her “tigress” because she’s so wild; she always hit and pinch me every time, she’s sweet in her own way and I like her… sometimes. Syazwan, the “rich boy” called me “flower boy”, well maybe because I’m so cute like a flower lol. I called him rich boy until yesterday when I realized that calling him “prince boy” would be better for he portrays the characteristics of a prince on the story books, based on his view of things in life and how I saw his gentlemanliness when we’re with the ladies. I don’t usually talk a lot to the tigress because I’m afraid that she would bite me ^^, just kidding. She’s really fun to talk to because she don’t took things easily, you’ll just talk and talk and talk and talk and talk until she gave you a roar! then you’ll stop lol. hoyeah! Well that was based on my experience with her. I talked a lot to Syazwan because he appreciates all the bullshits that I’m throwing, he’s a good friend as well, and they were good source of answers during exams too ^^. Then I asked them a question,

What is the role of a guy/girl in a boyfriend/girlfriend relationship?

I still haven’t get the specific, real, and true answer because they differ on different people, and some haven’t got any, maybe if you got it, you could help me, just post it here, on the comments. ^^

I asked that question to myself a long time ago, to my friends, and to people who I think are needed to be asked. If we were in a relationship, and things are not going well, I think it wise for us to ask this question to ourselves or to our partner. Well of course it depends on the situation or if the conflict lies on personal capability of understanding things.

We talked a lot that time, no, well actually, I talked a lot ^^. I’m a quiet type of guy, especially when things are new to me, I only talked a lot to people that I’m comfortable with.

I will surely miss them and everything about them especially now that we’ll not be seeing each other for a year. Things could be nothing for them, cause I’m not that special to be missed ^^ but for me, it’s really fun being with them even though we really don’t’ know a lot about each other.

Something in Nothing

My body is so weak

And my mind is giving up

I can feel every bit

Of things that is lack

I’m alone but crowded

A stampede inside

They’re coming from everywhere

No where I can’t hide

I got very sensitive

To the noise of the world

Anything that gives sound

Make my head explodes

All I can do is

The description of “nothing”

That is how I

Become an empty being

But still I believe

That there’s something in there

That I’m trying to pull

As I write myself

Somehow in this moment

I can feel the relief

Maybe because this poem

Bear out some of my grief

And I will continue

Healing to be well

Cause I won’t let myself

To be trapped in this hell

I know these things will past

And I’ll regain my strength

Because I have a God

Who’s always there to help

“This is my view” the child said

Everyone is a child but not everyone remember themselves being a child

When we become concerned with the matter of consequences we usually forget what the feeling of being a child is.

Parents must not promise something to their child if they don’t mean it. Adults usually forget that simple things bare a lot to young ones. They think that it is ok if they just ignore something that they promise to a child because they think that they will forget them when they grew up. Yes it is true, but not on all cases.

A young boy had a crush on a girl, his classmate. After class, he went home and goes to their backyard and started to write something on the tree that he found.

“I Love You”

 The next day, after class, her mother asked him “how’s school?”

“Its fine” the boy replied

“I saw what you wrote on the tree at our backyard, who is she?” the mother asked again.

The boy didn’t replied, he just looked down at the floor.

The mother asked him again while smiling, “who is she? It’s ok I won’t tell anyone, it’s our secret”

The boy then asked her mother, “Promise?”

“Yes I promise!” she said

The boy is very happy as he tells her mother about the girl he liked. He trusts her with all the trust that he can give.

The next day, everybody in their family knows everything, and then the boy asked his mother, “You promised me that no one will know, why you told them?”

“It’s ok It’s just them” she answered

At that very moment, the boy decided not to tell anything anymore to his parents, after that, he mastered the words “yes, no, and maybe” that’s the only words that he spoke whenever he was asked.

For adults, this kind of things is not a big deal. I understand why they think like that, it’s because their level of understanding only focuses on things that they face. They don’t realize that for a child, what they call simple and not a big deal is their main happiness in life. Don’t they realize that a child cries on simple things only? That means that a simple thing for them is a big thing for a child.

Parents do everything that they can do for their child to be in the best situation possible; they strive hard for their child’s future, and become one of their main priorities in life. But this is not an excuse to put aside their promises, because for a child they still don’t understand that everything their parents is doing is for them, what they need the most is what they see and what they feel because this is how they learn on this stage of life. Don’t push a child to understand something that is yet beyond his capability of understanding because they will surely misunderstand you, unless you show them, for that’s how they learn.

I am not yet a parent so I could be wrong, maybe I just don’t understand something, but for a child, this is my view.

The Most Important Thing on my Must-Do-List

At first, I am not fond of doing a To-Do-List until the time I realized how important and fulfilling it is.

After writing my first To-Do-List, I noticed that all of the tasks that I listed constitute consequences whenever I fail to do them. So, I decided to change it to a “Must-Do-List”

Even though It is already a Must-Do-List, I still cannot finish them all at the end of the day, so, I decided to put the most important things among all of them rather than listing only the study this, learn this, do this, do that, I decided to prioritize the following tasks…

-smile

-don’t get sick

-do your must-do-list

-thank God for everything

After listing them, I smiled, and one task is done already. I got inspired that very moment to finish them all because I already finished something, and I’m happy for it. ^^

One time a friend of mine saw the task “smile” on my Must-Do-List, she laughed and asked me why I put it there, then I told her, its like choosing my whole day to be happy.

My last task among all is to “thank God for everything. I am very eager to finish this task. Why? Well, for me, doing so constitutes victory. He is my stronghold, my, strength, and my everything, at times when I cannot finish my Must-Do-List, Thanking God for everything would bring my heart at peace.

Ice For Sale

The title of this post have nothing to do with my topic, It was the one who said it


I told my friend.


"I don't know what really is my line, am I a businessman, a seafarer, or a poet?"


then he said,


"Every one of us is a poet, if we will just write anything that inspire us we can have a track of it. I still remember the first time I earned money by what I wrote, Ice for Sale!"


That conversation draw a smile on my face ^^ and a back track on our life. It was just so interesting how we go through different paths when once before they were just our dreams.


Do you still remember what you and you're friends were like before you go through your different walks?


After hearing the ice for sale thing, I got this interest to know what my friends life are after so many years because, one day, I know that we will be the foundation of this society. They are important to me because they are pieces of puzzle of my life. On some ways, they build me on what I am today. 


One of my friend told me,


"A stewfeed will always be a stewfeed"


What it means to me is that, no matter what happen, we will still be there for each other.


                                                                                                             Regards to:
                                                                                                            Mr. Ralph Gabriel Monserrat
                                                                                                            Ms. Chai Elep

      Stewfeed

      We were once group of business administration students until we decided to take the walk that we   really want to. Some of us stayed, and some of us left, but I know, by the end of the day, we'll still be stewfeeds as ever.

Challenges in Life Have no Level of Difficulty

Ask a child what his problem is and he will tell you what it is

Ask a youngster what his problem is and he will tell you what it is

Ask an adult what his problem is and he will tell you what it is

Then let the child, the youngster, and the adult to talk about their problem and you will notice this,

Example situation:

Child:                     My problem is that my friends don’t want me to join the game they’re playing

Youngster:             Your problem is nothing compared to mine, I need to study hard for my exams or 

                               else I’ll fail

Adult:                    It’s the responsibility of an adult which is the hardest because we are responsible

                              for everything.

  

Challenges in life depend on someone’s ability and capacity to handle things. Telling someone that his problem is more difficult than the other is just unacceptable. For an adult, the child’s problem is just so simple, but for the child, the weight of it is just the same as the weight of what the adult is carrying.

Challenges in life make us stronger as we win them over, but what about those people who fail? Well, we only fail when we give up and as long as we’re not giving up we are still winners. I just told this for me not to be misunderstood but my point here is that every one of us has his own capacity of handling things. We tell people that our problem is heavier than theirs or their problem is heavier than ours because we don’t realize that that’s the only thing that we can handle in our current life’s situation.

Everything that is happening in our life has a reason and purpose, but sometimes it’s hard for us to see it because we limit ourselves in looking on certain things only. It is also the reason why we compare our problems to others.

“If an adult will say that, what if I give my problems to a child, isn’t impossible for him? Then how come challenges in life have no level of difficulty?”

Good point, for someone who really don’t understand. The thing here is that we cannot compare our problems to others because it’s a different thing. It is not based if we can come up with a solution to solve the problem but in our capacity to handle things They just don’t come if we cannot handle them...

To Be Or To Not

I knew someone, way back before

That makes me realize, that love is pure

I smiled and chill, when she looks at me

The sweetest look, that ever be

We have spend, lot of time together

Never realizing, time isn’t forever

Then suddenly a strike, of fear on our hearts

Makes us worried, to be apart

And then time came, with tears on her eyes

I cannot do anything, but to hug her tight

Promising I’ll be back, to continue our journey

And to be together, to eternity

I know time will come, I’ll see her again

But what I fear is, if love still remains

I am not talking, about her sincerity

Because the lost feeling, is lying on me

I keep on asking, am I happy or not

This became my basis, to be or to not

I am now confused, if love really is pure

Then how come it fades, hopefully not so soon

I know I am unfair, because I made a promise

But would fulfilling this, bring me at peace

What if she’s the one, and not I who lost love?

Can I take it easily, I bet I cannot

My heart feels heavy, imagining her with someone

Is this love, or just the devil’s fun

I don’t know what to do, this is still to come

Hoping for the answers, for right things to be done

Stiffened

Inspiration is what I need, for my dreams to feed

Flying with the wind, blowing away my greed

I want to see myself, standing on a cloud

Feeling the heights, touching soft ground

I want to make a song, that’ll make my heart speak

And that will tell the stars that they’re one inch reach

I will sing it to you, and I’ll let you listen

Then I can be with you, with the blessings from heaven

This poem is about love, stiffened by a dream

I haven’t got good lines, hopefully fixed by a hymn

This is all for you, even on the start

Because you’re my inspiration, that’s what my heart speak out

  

When To Regret?

“Failed Failures”

“Is There Something New?”

“What Thing Is A Single Breath Away?”

Do you ever experience the feeling when time actually stops for a while, then you start to have the eagerness to go back in time to undo the things that you’ve done? 

Those quoted phrases above were actually my first posts. After accidentally deleting them, I tried to pull out something good to what happened.  To admit it, I am really happy with these posts because they were my first three to my first blog. The feeling was just like when you lost a brand new phone which you’ve waited for so long to have.

Its quiet funny how I tried to lift myself up to what happened, I keep on smiling while trying to think of something good about it. The only thing that soothes me aside from having more space to put new posts is that I managed to post this.

When we experience such thing, “generally as failures”, we get very frustrated and sometimes we tend to give up especially when it is our fault. We start to regret things, but in reality, there is nothing to regret yet until we let the time pass by without doing anything. For me, the thing that is regretful is not the things that we have done, but the thing that we haven’t. Regret comes with regret until we do something.

I know that if I will not do something about what I have done (accidentally deleting my posts); I will be regretting that I haven’t taken an action, why? Well the answer would be stated on my post “What Thing Is A Single Breath Away”. Yup! I’ll post them again. I won’t let myself to regret something for regretting means a loss of something important permanently.

Is There Something New?

One of the best things in life is when there is something new happening. Why? Well, maybe because new things or better to say things which are not commonly included in our everyday’s life cycle is the cure to boredom.

While staying inside the campus for a year, I met someone. At first, she doesn’t want to be with me because she said that I’m too busy with my activities which that time is very new to me. Then suddenly she had this chance to be with me one time while I’m doing my daily routines. Then, my colorful life started to fade. I’m always with her all the time that I cannot do anything else but the same thing over and over again. She loves me so much that she doesn’t want to leave me anymore. Sometimes I tried to hide from her but at the end of the day, we’ll be together again.

One day, I decided to leave her for good. I told her to get lost because she makes me suffer every time she’s with me. Actually, it’s very hard for me even though I really want to because she still hangs around every time and everywhere I go but still, I managed to leave her, not totally, but she doesn’t bothered me a lot not just like before.

I don’t want you!

I don’t want you to be with me

Get Lost!

Those were the words that I told her because I don’t want her anymore. I always tried to find new things to do just for her not to bother me. Then she leaves. But sometimes, she drop by to say hello.

By the way, the name of the girl I’m talking about is Ms. Boredom

What Thing Is A Single Breath Away?

I just want to state that I don’t have the answer to this question.

Last night I dreamed of myself asking a question,

“What thing is a single breath away?”

I asked the question on my dream three times before it woke me up.

 I wonder which part in my subconscious mind the thing occurs.

“What thing is a single breath away?”

I tried to answer the question the moment I opened my eyes but I’m still sleepy so I just wrote it down on a piece of paper thinking that I might forget it the next time I wake up.

Krrrrrrng!

Krrrrrrng!

Krrrrrrng!

Before opening my eyes, I tried to remember the question that I dreamed.

“I smiled”

Why? Because I can’t remember it anymore, and the thing is, I wrote it down ^^

It is very interesting how our mind generates or captures ideas. They come to us without realizing that they will be coming at that certain moment. It was just like they’re invincible things floating in the air that when our head pass through it we get it ^^. They were magnificent even how complicated or simple they are. As far as I can be consistent, I am trying to write the ideas or thoughts that grab my attention because they can easily be swept off as fast as how they come. Maybe if we’ll revise the question to “What thing goes away as fast as a single breath?” then my answer will be “ideas”.

Failed Failures

I trust in You with all my heart

Hoping my prayers to be heard

I think the butterflies in my stomach

Now turns to hundred flocks of birds

My eyes don’t shed any tears

I know that you can see

But my heart is crying loudly

For Your help to set me free

I’m trying to change myself to be better

And keeping good thing to be done

But still these failures hit me

Wherever place I run

I’m doing my best on everything

That’s why it really hurts

Because on the time of judgments

These failures pops and bursts

Being successful is a need

And not just a want for me

Because this thing of certain

Is what my life would be

I need these things right now

I know that You understand

I ask for strength and passion

Then on the battle I will stand

Now I pray for Your comfort

That You will not leave me

 Now I’ll smile on everything

Even failures is what I see

I know there is a time for me

To reach my successful peak

For my stronghold is You

I won’t ever again be weak

Lord this is my prayer

But still Your will be done

Cause I know You have a plan for me

Better where I want to stand